Where does your hope come from?

We had a little hope of a job opening pop up last week. It made me realize that I have been moping around and have had very little (basically no) faith. I thought that this job might be the answer, and I realized how much better I felt once I had that hope. I am very disappointed that a job prospect gave me hope. Where does my hope come from? It should come from God. I have already wrestled with the question, where does my security come from? That should come from God as well. However, I have realized that it came from Shawn's job. I am trying very hard to keep faith. When this is over, I really want to look back and NOT think how little faith I had. I want to look back and think I KNEW God was taking care of me.